After learning the truth, the real truth and not the truth behind the rose colored glasses, isn't the first question always, 'knowing what I know now, would I do it all over again?' I'm not sure what most people would do, but I know me and I know I would do it all over again. Yes, I am better off now; I'm sad oh so sad knowing life once again has passed me by. Daily I pray to be on God's path and for him to close those doors that are no longer meant to be open. This door was closing not too long after it had been open. I was lucky enough for it to stay open for as long as it was just so I could learn so much more about me and what I could handle.
As I look to leave the past behind me and begin a new, I can only hope the challenges I have faced in the past allow me to escape those same challenges in the future. Almost every day I can be the grown up, the mature adult who smiles and walks with her head held high; it's times like this when I feel I can't just sit back and watch it all crumble away. I always thought I could help and make through, but have realized I can't help what hasn't completely broken and sadly when it does break, I won't be here to help.
Falling in love was the easy part, letting go to watch it fall apart is hard.
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