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I can hold my breath

I can bite my tongue

I can stay awake for days

If that’s what you want

Be your number one

I can fake a smile

I can force a laugh

I can dance and play the part

If that’s what you ask

Give you all I am

I can do it

But I’m only human

And I bleed when I fall down

I’m only human

And I crash and I break down

Your words in my head, knives in my heart

You build me up and then I fall apart

‘cause I’m only human

I can turn it on

Be a good machine

I can hold the weight of worlds

If that’s what you need

Be your everything

I can do it, I’ll get through it

I can take so much,

Until I’ve had enough

She chose her

Love is life, life is love.  Each day is met with a smile and a love for all God has given.  A quick thank you prayer is said and her feet move to the beat of the day.  As each moment passes throughout each day life is taking her that much closer to her choice of a new beginning.

Those who don't know her well say she's strong, she smiles and inside grins with delight knowing this is nothing, she's handled tougher challenges.  This is easy, this is fun but this is hard and this is real.   It was never a matter of if only a matter of when.  She never knew how difficult real would become; without the challenges she knows inside she would feel completely unfulfilled.  Challenges are easy; it's living inward that is hard.  

The real challenge was never in her plan, in choosing her she lost him. He fills each moment that passes.  He lives in each breath she takes.  Every new memory without him is remembered to share it once again, her thought only ever on when this journey is up, they can begin anew.  Every morning she awakens and amazed he is gone.  Her eyes no longer sparkle and, like his, her smile doesn't reach her eyes.  Life continues to happen all around her, there is no stopping because her heart aches.  She perseveres knowing she would expect nothing less from herself.  This is her challenge, her life and her fight from within.

Tomorrow is a gift, not a given.  She can only hope to live in the moment with a smile as this journey continues